INSPIRATION
Time to SHINE with Carla Coulson
‘Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye’
I turn 50 this year in June, and I will be celebrating in Paris.
I will also be in front of the lens of Carla Coulson
and the beauty of this is that she will show me what everyone else has always known
……that I am beautiful and that it is my time to Shine.
Congratulations started coming in, my face book page was beeping all day, and when I saw my name selected I couldn’t believe it.
Dance Like.. And The Winner(s) are…
I turned the camera on to say thank you to Carla Coulson and that was the end of me. It was all just too much, a life changing dream come true, my time to Shine. I almost deleted that little video clip, kept trying to compose myself to make another one without the raw emotion. But in the end I posted it to Carla on my facebook page, the response was overwhelming.
The reason I didn’t delete it is because I never want my daughter to feel like this.
I don’t want her growing up without photos to capture the moments of joy in her life. I want her free and certain and glowing in front of the camera, I want her to always know how beautiful she is both inside and out, good hair days or bad…..make up or no make up, laughing crying and just the way she is. Isn’t that what we all want, to be seen, to be heard, to make a difference.
I still don’t look in mirrors, I haven’t since I was a teenager, especially if anyone else is in the room. I have been known to wait in toilet cubicles until those applying fresh makeup leave the room. I don’t like getting my photo taken, and growing up my Mum would always light the house in the evening with candles and she was careful to sit in the ‘best light’ how funny I had totally forgotten about that until just this moment.
At school and into my early 30’s I had severe cystic acne, I tried everything to make it disappear but in the end I see now that I disappeared a little at a time. In my teens and 20’s I wouldn’t go out if I was having a bad skin day.
Friends and family would greet me with ‘Oh your skin looks better today’ and old ladies would stop me on the street to give me the ‘cure’……my closest friend in high school turned on me (as can happen in school) and her favorite taunt was about my skin, she enrolled the entire school into her chorus (or so it seemed to me).
Actually now I think about it my brother hated getting his photo taken as well and it was a family sport to try to get a photo of him. We have many of him with his hand up to his face or with the finger up, I wonder what his story was. I never thought to ask him and it’s too late now.
I notice that Carina doesn’t give her childish beaming smile when getting her photo taken, she thinks her teeth are too big….when I got my wedding photos I ‘fixed’ them….and on one favorite I even slightly straightened my nose (thanks to the wonder that is photoshop). My Mum rang to thank me for the photos I sent her saying she’d never had such a nice photo of us, she never knew that I tweaked it a little first.
I remember when I was working for a photographer in Melbourne, she took packages at school formals and a Mother came in to her office enraged that she’d ‘taken out’ her son’s acne without asking first. I’ve been guilty of doing this same thing with photos of our children. Carina will think she never had a spot as a baby. We are so lucky to have this chance to put it right with Carla Coulson behind the lens.
How we see ourselves can become complicated!
It’s time to give that story up…..it’s my time to SHINE with the wonderful Carla Coulson
and as always I will be sharing the journey with you x
Let’s SHINE together x
Post Update
click here to see the portraits from Paris
and the gang x












I cried right along with you Lisa. I think most of us can relate to your younger self story. For what it’s worth, I think you are beautiful. I am 61 and only now am accepting my old face. What gives with us ladies?? Enjoy every well deserved minute and give Carla a hug from me because I just love her work . Ciao cara Lisa 🙂
It’s been such an emotional time the last few years Meredith, and winning the portrait was totally overwhelming. Now having returned from Paris and seen the photos I have resolved to be in as many photos as I can, to laugh out loud, to be silly, to hug my kids, to just be happy within myself and let my spirit shine.
A huge gift from Carla, she showed me that dreams can come true.
We women are so hard on ourselves, I love turning 50, and spending that time with Carina, she was so surprised to see me in high heels and yes even red lipstick.
xxx
Lisa — I loved watching the video of you and hearing your voice in person. You are beautiful inside and out and you deserve this more than anyone. I am so happy for you. Big Hugs, Trisha
Oh through the snuffling and tears, I was totally over wrought and it all hit at once. I can’t wait to spend the day with Carla and having Carina in the shots is just a huge bonus. My Mum will be so proud and we’ll have a record of a very special time in our lives and the first time my daughter visits Paris. xxx
Lisa this is so exciting!! I’m so HAPPY for you. I also dodged photographs for years and years thinking I was an ugly ducking then in my thirties I lived with a photographer who made me feel beautiful and something changed. I know this will happen to you too. It’s never too late to blossom!! Xxcat
arghhhh I know I am mega excited and so is Carina. I think a photographer would be the perfect soul to show you your own beauty. I plan to shine so brightly my Mum will see the glow in the sky xxxx
Lisa, what a beautiful revealing video! You are so honest and open and willing to expose your most secret feelings to us. It is wonderful that you will get a professional sitting for a portrait.
Nothing could be more appropriate for a landmark birthday like your fiftieth. And to do it in Paris! Wow!
Caterina I almost didn’t share it but then I thought I bet other women feel this way, if nobody talks about it then it just continues to the next generation. I’ve always been honest, maybe very tactful but honest if possible. I remember my girlfriend and I would go out to the pub on the weekend and we’d get chatting with guys and when they’d ask me something I’d just tell them the truth, it shocked them at first but then they’d keep asking questions. So funny now I think about it. Bring on Paris xxx
sending love xxx
Oh, Lisa, how I (and my mother) can relate! We both avoid photos because we’ve never felt we photographed well (we really don’t – or rarely). I’m so excited for you, this opportunity. You will have a blast and I can’t wait to see (and hear) all about it!
Ciao bella! xoxo
Ahh I remember how you felt about photo’s and I was thinking what a shame because you looked so gorgeous in the few photos I took, guess you could say the same to me lol
The only concern I have about the photo shoot is that I have no clothes other than jeans etc and no moola to buy anything….I’ll have to see how we can get around this, I’d love something really special x
Hi Lisa, although I already commented on your facebook page, I wanted to add a comment here. I just so relate to you. My mom hated having her picture taken, and I do as well, and now my daughter. I also was bullied as a young girl, and had horrible acne, from 10 yrs. old through mid-30s, and only with the help of really strong drugs did it go away for good. Now my issue is my weight.
So I am the one behind the camera instead. I feel more comfortable that way. But what am I teaching my daughter? That her beauty comes from the outside, and not from her beautiful soul? Your words on the video and this post have touched me deeply. I am going to make some changes–even dare to step in front of the camera from time to time. And to stop complaining about my looks!
Yes, it is our time, and our daughters’ time, to shine. I have been a faithful, but silent, participant in your posts for quite a while, but now I am speaking up because I want you to know how much your pursuit of your passion has meant to me, and now, being vulnerable with all of us, I feel like we are long-lost sisters. Even though I live across the ocean in California, and our paths may never cross (unless I can save up enough pennies to fly your way, or vice versa), please know that you have a new long-distance friend.
PS: Congratulations, again, on the photo shoot. Can’t wait to hear all about it and to see the results.
Karene it’s so true that we pass this legacy onto our children, they look to us for guidance and I see this already with Carina and she is only eleven. I only hope that she doesn’t go through this acne phase it made my life hell and yes I went on two courses of those drugs and had to sign paperwork saying I wouldn’t fall pregnant. My Mum spent a fortune on naturopaths, skin care, creams, and so did I and it didn’t make much difference.
That my sharing could make a difference to you is what gives me the greatest joy, I truly believe that all these things we tell ourselves are universal. The more we step out and look for ways to make a difference the brighter we Shine, and it is voices like yours that ring true and speak to the heart. I’m so glad to hear you, your voice is like a beacon and my dear long lost sister I am sending you a big hug and I hope our paths do cross, we could always skype, these conversations are what makes all the difference, as women being able to share and know we aren’t alone xxx
I would love to overcome the time difference, and my tech challenges, to skype with you, Lisa! Although my old computer doesn’t have a camera, my daughter’s does, and I have sort of learned to skype on it. When she isn’t in college classes, I know she would help me out. Isn’t technology amazing?! Especially for those of us “of a certain age” 😉 Let’s keep in touch, friend!
Hey just let me know and we’ll give it a try, my Mum has an Ipad but no clue how to use it, she’s determined to learn xx
keep in touch, did I send you my skype name??
xxx
Not yet. Send it to me in a facebook message. And I will check on my daughter’s schedule. 🙂
I’ll do it now xx