When I out of the blue mentioned to Sam that I wanted to go to Australia and see my Mum he blurted out ‘Oh are you going back to work out how to divorce me?’
…. you could say that we’ve been having some relationship problems!
Rather than loving the simple life we’re creating together it’s become a daily ‘just get through it today’ battle, little or no communication between us in our marriage.
It’s been affecting me everyday, I was even medicating (for depression caused by menopause) but I know part of what we are dealing with is contributing.
I went off the medication about a month ago without telling Sam and lashed back with ‘well I don’t want to have to medicate to be able to stay in my marriage’. It just got worse from there with hurtful things flung about, lots of swearing, crying and door slamming.
All this in front of our children.
F@# we’re idiots!
So here I am in Australia spending time with my mum, and NO not looking to divorce my husband (who I LOVE very much).
We’ll work this out, we always do, absence is certainly making my heart grow fonder, ahhh communication is the key and I am one who keeps my feelings close to my chest. I find it excruciating to have to say ‘I’m Sorry, or even I love You’….Sam on the other hand says them both and often to me, he’s always the first to make the peace.
F%$k I’m an idiot!
He thinks I want to leave him, take the kids and go back to Australia…..
Well f#@k… he’s an idiot!
I love our life in Italy, I love our life together good and bad, I love YOU Sam, I’m not going anywhere!
Just thought I’d let you know…..